Sabi ko noon, makita lang kita saglit, okay na ako. Sa wakas, nakita rin kita ulit kanina – 12082011. Kaya lang, hindi ko parin masasabi na okay na ako dahil nakita kita o malungkot ako dahil hindi man lang natin pinansin ang bawat isa. Ewan ko. Hindi ko alam.

Sa dinadami pa ng lugar na pwede kitang makita, sa Shangri-la pa. Paakyat ako ng escalator, pababa ka. Alam kong nakita mo ko dahil nakita kong tumingin ka. Gusto kong lumingon, baka sakaling lumingon ka rin. Gusto kitang habulin, baka sakaling kausapin mo ko. Siguro may kikitain ka, di ka naman basta-basta lumalabas pagkatapos ng trabaho mo lalo na pag umuulan.

Gusto kitang kamustahin. Gusto kitang yakapin.

Habang papunta ako ng MRT, umaasa akong sinundan mo ko. Sinadya kong bagalan ang aking paglalakad para maabutan mo ko. Nagbabakasakali ako pero walang Keibi na sumunod at naiintindihan ko.

Tulala ako sa MRT habang iniisip kita. Inaalala kung pano kita nakilala. Mga masasayang bagay na kasama ka. Pati na rin ang mga tampuhan, away at kwentuhan.

Bakit pa kasi nauso ang facebook? Eh di sana hindi kita nakita at inadd. Pero hindi ako nagsisisi.

Ano ba kasi ang meron ka at hindi kita makalimutan ha? Tangin-a naman eh. Alam ko naman na kasalanan ko lahat eh. Aminado naman ako dun pero bakit ang sakit-sakit parin?

Gusto ko na maka-move on. Gusto ko ng closure.

Karma ba ‘to? Wala akong pakialam, gusto ko lang ang kapatawaran mo sa lahat ng ginawa ko. Alam kong wala nang pag-asa magsimula pa muli dahil nasira na lahat.

Maghihintay ako. Sana patawarin mo ko.

I miss you so much, Keibi. ♥

Sa biglang pag-usbong ng facebook at twitter, uso pa ba ang blogging? May mga bloggers pa rin kaya hanggang ngayon? O kasama na sila sa mga adik sa facebook at twitter. Yung friendster nga, napag-iwanan na ng milya-milya. Kasama din kaya mga bloggers? Andami kong tanong, andami kong gustong malaman. Pati ako kaya, napag-iwanan na rin? Kelangan rin ba ako sumabay sa uso?

Nung isang araw pa ako kating-kati magsulat ulit pagkatapos kong magbasa ulit ng libro. Astig nga eh, natakot pa ako eh di naman horror yung nakasulat. Haha! Excited pa naman ako tapusin yung librong yun pero natakot lang ako sa bandang huli. Letseng manunulat, di man lang nagbigay ng disclaimer! Di tuloy ako nakatulog ng mabuti kaya sabog kinabukasan sa trabaho.

Speaking of trabaho, medyo maganda ang nangyayari sa work ko. Nag-apply ako bilang Team Mentor , sana naman makuha ako. Hehe! Halos lahat ng nag-apply kasi ay magagaling at mas nauna pa sakin. Nakaka-pressure din. Pero ayos lang dahil suportado ako ng aming TL at ng dalawang oso. Kwento ko yung dalawang oso sa susunod pag may time ako magsulat. Hehe!

Gusto ko na umuwi samin, miss ko na ermat ko, ate ko at mga pamangkin ko dun. Susubukan kong umuwi sa August, fiesta kasi dun eh. Sana matuloy ako.

Sige, tulog na ako. Ingats!

I would like also to take this opportunity to thank those who chose my blog as part of their thesis study and for being the “Blog for the Month of November 2009″. Thank you as well to those readers who never fail to visit my blog regularly and leave some comment.

My blog would not go this far if not because of you guys and the people around me who always shares their experiences and lessons in life. It has been eight months since the day I left for Manila, there are so many things that I have learned.

Bye for now and may you have a prosperous 2010!

Moving forward, this post has nothing to do with Christmas anymore since it happened after Christmas. Most likely, a Christmas aftermath! When I was with YOU the day after Christmas, I realized something. It is quite funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back, everything is different.

Dear YOU,

I know that you know for a fact how much you are special to me. It has been eight months since the last time we saw each other. I miss YOU a lot – your smile, eyes, nose and cheeks. Lastly, I miss US.

You just don’t know how much you made me happy when you let me know that you were coming. The feeling was ecstatic. I do apologize if I was late in picking you up at the airport. I know that you’re used to it. Spending seven hours with me on that day means a lot to me. If not just because of your mom, it could have been eternity. Haha!

Good things never last. I had mixed emotions on the last hour that we’re together. We need to go back to the airport to pick up your mom. As the clock tickles, you’re getting excited to see your mom while I’m getting sad because we’re getting apart. You suddenly fell asleep on my shoulder while waiting for your mom. It was perfect.

YOU, thank you so much for making me happy on that day. The words that was printed on my shirt on that day describes everything.

“Happy with YOU, Happy Forever!, Happy inLOVE. . .”

It was indeed a great day, a memorable one, one of the memories that I had with you that would lasts forever. No goodbyes as we promised. I LOVE YOU!

One-liner: People may not remember exactly what you did or what you said but they will always remember how you made them feel.

I am not yet used to my life that I have now. Everything seems to be monotonous. I keep on doing the same thing every day. Hahaha! So far so good, I am happy where I am now and with the people I am with. They are nice and humble. Astig!

I’m running out of words now. I don’t know what to say anymore. Perhaps I’ll just post another entry next time. Hehe!

God bless everyone!

From this day forward, I’m gonna have a new life, new beginning and new environment. I’ll be leaving for Manila. I’ll be working there and I hope everything would be okay. This would be the very first time I would be separated with my family for  a long time. I feel sadness. I don’t want to leave them especially my Mom. But, I’ll be holding on to my promise that it’s time for me to return the favor to my family especially my Mom and Sister, who have been so supportive with me. I’m glad that both of them are still with me – alive.

I know the first few weeks in Manila would be very tough for me  – both physically and mentally, because I’ve been so dependent with my family for my whole life. But somehow, I thank them for teaching me how to do household chores. I’ve been wanting to learn how to be independent and I guess, this is already the opportunity for me how to learn that.

I have realized that in life, we have to choose and make decisions and in every decisions, we need to make sacrifices. So this is what I am doing now, I have to sacrifice being away with my family because of the choice I made. I want my family to be proud of me – especially  my Mom, Dad and Sister.

To God be the Glory! Have a nice day!

Lately all I do is think and think and think. Sometimes I am thinking about my options. Choices that are hard for me to choose which, more so harder for me to have thought about them.

Everyday seems like a battle for me. A battle to stay sane, reasonable and fair. Though the circumstances that have befallen upon us seemed unfair and difficult, I still managed to justify things in the hope that you are now genuine towards me, towards your feelings, towards US.

I think it is about time that you know my thoughts, things that are hard for me to verbalize because I am not the kind of person who can clearly put into words my thoughts and my feelings. I wanted to be fair with you even if i don’t get the same treatment from you.

After everything we’ve gone through, everything that transpired, I came to ask myself, is it worth it? Is our relationship worth fighting for? I might have told you this before, but love is never enough. It is a hard realization but the events made this easier for me to grasp its gravity. I have loved you since the very first day I comitted myself to you. I still love you, it may be hard for me to say this, but i believe you deserve to know, I think I don’t love you that much anymore. The excitement of being with you has faded. Before, everyday, I am always looking forward to be with you, you don’t know how much happiness this has brought me. I rush out of the school after the clock hits the time for me to go home. I couldn’t wait to see you. But now, it seems like the excitement and zealousness dissipated. Sometimes I drag myself to go home.

I have a confession to make. I believe you deserve to know. I met someone online who is interesting. I saw some traits that I long for in a partner. We share the same views and interests. That person knows about you though. Don’t get me wrong, but our relationship is merely that of friends. You made me realize, it would’ve been better if we started out as friends. We have never met personally. There have been a lot of occasions that he asked that we meet, just to talk, have coffee. Even invited me to go on trips. But I did not relent. For this, I am sorry. I am committed to be that faithful partner to you.

In all fairness to you, I have been thankful that I met you. You made me realize dreams i thought would just remain to be dreams. We have our happy moments, for sure. I love how we laugh together over trivial stuff. I love how i feel your warm breath on my nape.

But now, I realized I am not enough for you. You have needs and wants and priorities that I cannot compensate for. I realized how we are not really compatible. How our interests differ from each other. What if after a few years or months from now you will meet another “me”, another person. This is not impossible to happen, there’s no assurance and I can’t bear just the thought of it.

You might be wondering why I’m telling you this. But cliche as it may sound, i just wanted to get this off my chest. I don’t know what will happen to us from now on. I don’t even know if i still wish for the best.

To all the graduates, goodluck to all of us and may God bless us all! Again, congratulations!

Would you believe me if I say that I wrote this entry for the one I love most? Well, it might not be as well-written and striking like the other entries. But you know, you cannot write about love if you’re not in love or if you have never been in love. But for the one I love most, I can write this entry so effortlessly.

I want to thank “YOU” for the things you did and for your indulgent. Thank your for the promise that your heart will always be close to mine. You are someone who has no boundary of time when I don’t have vigor to go forward. Let’s come to think of this and look at all we could miss, I can’t let this happen, ‘coz it’s you that I’ll always love! If I told you I love you, would you love me back? I could never really love someone else but you and I have never wanted anything else, just only you!

I’m so blissful to have you by my side, now I know what a saccharine life is. Do you feel like I feel? Everyday without you is being without any meaning. You might have heard hundreds of thousands of love entries. They might be significant but their meanings are for anyone. But this, it is written only for you. If you comprehend its meaning, our hearts will be mutually forever.

There are so many truths in love. In the past, I spent too much moment looking for the gist of it. But I know that every time you are near, that if our lives are a quantity of music, then you are the libretto that composes my life meaningful and in concert we make beautiful harmony. Every time I feel your love shining in my heart, I can perceive my destiny.

I can perceive no paths that can guide me forward in darkness with my abandoned heart, without your heart near mine. The night can be so very long when I can witness no brightness from the firmament. The more I gaze around, the more I become anxious of the night that has yet to pass. Is there any other way to go?

I know the sun will stand out tomorrow. For as long as I know that there is tomorrow, there’s hope and I have a lifetime in loving you.

Happy Valentine’s Day!

Maybe. . we were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Maybe . . . when the door of happiness closes, another opens; but, often times, we look so long at the closed door that we don’t even see the new one which has been opened for us.

Maybe . . . it is true that we don’t know what we have until we lose it, but it is also true that we don’t know what we have been missing until it arrives.

Maybe . . . the happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Maybe . . . the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; after all, you can’t go on successfully in life until you let go of your past mistakes, failures and heartaches.

Maybe . . . you should dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you dream of, and want to do.

Maybe . . . there are moments in life when you miss someone — a parent, a spouse, a friend, a child — so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real, so that once they are around you appreciate them more.

Maybe . . . the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you’ve ever had.

Maybe . . you should always try to put yourself in others’ shoes. If you feel that something could hurt you, it probably will hurt the other person, too.

Maybe . . you should do something nice for someone every single day, even if it is simply to leave them alone.

Maybe . giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don’t expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart; but, if it doesn’t, be content that it grew in yours.

Maybe . . . happiness waits for all those who cry, all those who hurt, all those who have searched, and all those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of all the people who have touched their lives.

Maybe . . . you shouldn’t go for looks; they can deceive; don’t go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Maybe . . you should hope for enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, and enough hope to make you happy

Maybe . . . you should try to live your life to the fullest because when you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling but when you die, you can be the one who is smiling and everyone around you crying.