Random Thoughts 101

•April 18, 2011 • Leave a Comment

Namiss ko ang pagsusulat. Matagal na rin pala simula nung nag-post ako dito sa blog ko. Andami ko ng napagdaan at natutunan. Ilang kaarawan ko na ba ang nagdaan? Dalawang kaarawan na rin pala. Nasa apat na taon na rin itong blog ko, hindi ko man lang naipagdiwang. Wala rin naman nakaalala.

Sa biglang pag-usbong ng facebook at twitter, uso pa ba ang blogging? May mga bloggers pa rin kaya hanggang ngayon? O kasama na sila sa mga adik sa facebook at twitter. Yung friendster nga, napag-iwanan na ng milya-milya. Kasama din kaya mga bloggers? Andami kong tanong, andami kong gustong malaman. Pati ako kaya, napag-iwanan na rin? Kelangan rin ba ako sumabay sa uso?

Nung isang araw pa ako kating-kati magsulat ulit pagkatapos kong magbasa ulit ng libro. Astig nga eh, natakot pa ako eh di naman horror yung nakasulat. Haha! Excited pa naman ako tapusin yung librong yun pero natakot lang ako sa bandang huli. Letseng manunulat, di man lang nagbigay ng disclaimer! Di tuloy ako nakatulog ng mabuti kaya sabog kinabukasan sa trabaho.

Speaking of trabaho, medyo maganda ang nangyayari sa work ko. Nag-apply ako bilang Team Mentor , sana naman makuha ako. Hehe! Halos lahat ng nag-apply kasi ay magagaling at mas nauna pa sakin. Nakaka-pressure din. Pero ayos lang dahil suportado ako ng aming TL at ng dalawang oso. Kwento ko yung dalawang oso sa susunod pag may time ako magsulat. Hehe!

Gusto ko na umuwi samin, miss ko na ermat ko, ate ko at mga pamangkin ko dun. Susubukan kong umuwi sa August, fiesta kasi dun eh. Sana matuloy ako. 🙂

Sige, tulog na ako. Ingats!


Strike Three!

•January 16, 2010 • Leave a Comment

Happy 3rd Anniversary to my blog! I never thought that I would go this far. I would like to thank all of my avid readers. I have not really updated my blog on its 2nd year but I promise that this year would be a blast. Hell Yeah!

I would like also to take this opportunity to thank those who chose my blog as part of their thesis study and for being the “Blog for the Month of November 2009”. Thank you as well to those readers who never fail to visit my blog regularly and leave some comment.

My blog would not go this far if not because of you guys and the people around me who always shares their experiences and lessons in life. It has been eight months since the day I left for Manila, there are so many things that I have learned.

Bye for now and may you have a prosperous 2010!

Happy With YOU!

•December 27, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Christmas has never been the same for me. This is my first Christmas away from my family. Darn! I really miss my family and friends back home. My Christmas was somehow merry because I had the chance to spend it with my friends at work. Good thing, we were required to go to work last Christmas. To sum it up, it was an ordinary day for me.

Moving forward, this post has nothing to do with Christmas anymore since it happened after Christmas. Most likely, a Christmas aftermath! When I was with YOU the day after Christmas, I realized something. It is quite funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back, everything is different.

Dear YOU,

I know that you know for a fact how much you are special to me. It has been eight months since the last time we saw each other. I miss YOU a lot – your smile, eyes, nose and cheeks. Lastly, I miss US.

You just don’t know how much you made me happy when you let me know that you were coming. The feeling was ecstatic. I do apologize if I was late in picking you up at the airport. I know that you’re used to it. Spending seven hours with me on that day means a lot to me. If not just because of your mom, it could have been eternity. Haha!

Good things never last. I had mixed emotions on the last hour that we’re together. We need to go back to the airport to pick up your mom. As the clock tickles, you’re getting excited to see your mom while I’m getting sad because we’re getting apart. You suddenly fell asleep on my shoulder while waiting for your mom. It was perfect.

YOU, thank you so much for making me happy on that day. The words that was printed on my shirt on that day describes everything.

“Happy with YOU, Happy Forever!, Happy inLOVE. . .”

It was indeed a great day, a memorable one, one of the memories that I had with you that would lasts forever. No goodbyes as we promised. I LOVE YOU!

One-liner: People may not remember exactly what you did or what you said but they will always remember how you made them feel.

New Life. New Environment.

•July 2, 2009 • 1 Comment

It has been more than two months now since I left my hometown. I miss my family and friends that I have there. I miss the place itself. Maybe I am just used to the life that I have in my hometown. There are lot of things that I miss doing back in Zamboanga. I miss my Mom and my sister.

I am not yet used to my life that I have now. Everything seems to be monotonous. I keep on doing the same thing every day. Hahaha! So far so good, I am happy where I am now and with the people I am with. They are nice and humble. Astig!

I’m running out of words now. I don’t know what to say anymore. Perhaps I’ll just post another entry next time. Hehe!

God bless everyone!

New Beginnings!

•April 29, 2009 • Leave a Comment

“All my bags are packed
Im ready to go
Im standin here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye”

From this day forward, I’m gonna have a new life, new beginning and new environment. I’ll be leaving for Manila. I’ll be working there and I hope everything would be okay. This would be the very first time I would be separated with my family for  a long time. I feel sadness. I don’t want to leave them especially my Mom. But, I’ll be holding on to my promise that it’s time for me to return the favor to my family especially my Mom and Sister, who have been so supportive with me. I’m glad that both of them are still with me – alive.

I know the first few weeks in Manila would be very tough for me  – both physically and mentally, because I’ve been so dependent with my family for my whole life. But somehow, I thank them for teaching me how to do household chores. I’ve been wanting to learn how to be independent and I guess, this is already the opportunity for me how to learn that.

I have realized that in life, we have to choose and make decisions and in every decisions, we need to make sacrifices. So this is what I am doing now, I have to sacrifice being away with my family because of the choice I made. I want my family to be proud of me – especially  my Mom, Dad and Sister.

To God be the Glory! Have a nice day!

Should I Let You Go?

•April 9, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Lately all I do is think and think and think. Sometimes I am thinking about my options. Choices that are hard for me to choose which, more so harder for me to have thought about them.

Everyday seems like a battle for me. A battle to stay sane, reasonable and fair. Though the circumstances that have befallen upon us seemed unfair and difficult, I still managed to justify things in the hope that you are now genuine towards me, towards your feelings, towards US.

I think it is about time that you know my thoughts, things that are hard for me to verbalize because I am not the kind of person who can clearly put into words my thoughts and my feelings. I wanted to be fair with you even if i don’t get the same treatment from you.

After everything we’ve gone through, everything that transpired, I came to ask myself, is it worth it? Is our relationship worth fighting for? I might have told you this before, but love is never enough. It is a hard realization but the events made this easier for me to grasp its gravity. I have loved you since the very first day I comitted myself to you. I still love you, it may be hard for me to say this, but i believe you deserve to know, I think I don’t love you that much anymore. The excitement of being with you has faded. Before, everyday, I am always looking forward to be with you, you don’t know how much happiness this has brought me. I rush out of the school after the clock hits the time for me to go home. I couldn’t wait to see you. But now, it seems like the excitement and zealousness dissipated. Sometimes I drag myself to go home.

I have a confession to make. I believe you deserve to know. I met someone online who is interesting. I saw some traits that I long for in a partner. We share the same views and interests. That person knows about you though. Don’t get me wrong, but our relationship is merely that of friends. You made me realize, it would’ve been better if we started out as friends. We have never met personally. There have been a lot of occasions that he asked that we meet, just to talk, have coffee. Even invited me to go on trips. But I did not relent. For this, I am sorry. I am committed to be that faithful partner to you.

In all fairness to you, I have been thankful that I met you. You made me realize dreams i thought would just remain to be dreams. We have our happy moments, for sure. I love how we laugh together over trivial stuff. I love how i feel your warm breath on my nape.

But now, I realized I am not enough for you. You have needs and wants and priorities that I cannot compensate for. I realized how we are not really compatible. How our interests differ from each other. What if after a few years or months from now you will meet another “me”, another person. This is not impossible to happen, there’s no assurance and I can’t bear just the thought of it.

You might be wondering why I’m telling you this. But cliche as it may sound, i just wanted to get this off my chest. I don’t know what will happen to us from now on. I don’t even know if i still wish for the best.


•March 28, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Before anything else, I would like to congratulate all my of my fellow graduates of Batch 2009. Finally, our years of journey has come to an end. Let us all say HELLO to the world of unemployment! Haha! Are you ready to face the ratrace?

To all the graduates, goodluck to all of us and may God bless us all! Again, congratulations!